How are you? I hope all things around you went well. How's your day today? How's school? or How's work? How's your family? Can't wait to know them. The reason I wrote this letter is I wanted to tell you that no matter how hard I am with you on the future please just bear with me. I noticed lately people tend to cheat on their partner. Well, social media has been expanding day by day. Many apps been created or made. I'm sure communication is not a problem or perhaps it is the reason people cheat on their partner. I don't know about you but I really enjoy 3 am conversation. I'm quite an introvert myself. I'm not saying that I hate small talk but honest talk would be awesome. I love coffee so much but I had migraine and need to cut off my caffeine intake per day. I'm not sure if it's true but I been reading this article about O blood type need to take control on their caffeine intake. So, I'm just doing it for the sake that I'm an O blood type. How about you? are you tea person or a coffee person? or perhaps you hate caffeinated drinks? Frankly, a relationship is not what I need for now. I just want to learn to embrace myself, build some confidence, try to eat clean and getting a good grades. I'm hoping that I can graduate on 2018. I would love to have you by my side now but I'm afraid you will walk away from me. I'm a girl with plenty of flaws. I'm not people's first choice. I'm the fat girl. I'm that last person people choose to be with. Sometimes, people refuse to be friends with me. But, never mind because quality is the only thing that matters. I really love being in small circle of people where I really know them, growing our faith together in Christ, having fellowship not only on Sunday but also on certain weekdays like Wednesday. I really enjoy being in Christian community. Somehow, that is almost like my comfort zone. How about you? how's the people on your surrounding? is it good? or vice versa? which church are you attending? How's your Sunday? the truth is I can't wait to meet you. I swear I'll be good to you, be there for you, be extremely proud to have you in my life, be the girl that you will love for the rest of your life, care for you of course! ut most importantly, love me for who I am. Again, I'm not perfect either looks or physically or mentally. HEHE. Kidding though. I'm that plain Jane. I don't have any special skills to attract people's attention. I'm not even good at talking. I'm really a shy person. I hate going on stage, do presentation or anything that makes me speak in front of crowd. But, thankfully I managed to have friends. Don't worry, I'm good being alone but it doesn't mean I didn't need you. I always need someone to be there for me. I'm might look tough but I always cry during the night before I go to sleep. This is because everything seems so hard for this semester. Right now is my 5th semester and I have 2 more to go. I really losing all the motivation to study, I hate going to class, feeling down, financial and family problems. I even thought about suicide. But, I know suicide doesn't fix anything. I always be thankful to God because of HIS love and mercy towards us the sinner. My mother sacrifice all of her just to make sure I can go to University. I can't be selfish. Right? Still, everything seems hopeless. I just want it to end faster. I wanna go home. I want to be with my family. Love, I almost tell you everything about me. Is it terrible? I bet you'll call me crazy or a girl that having a lot of issues. I can't lie to you. I don't want you end up not knowing my true self. I have so many things inside my head but I only speak what's really important. Through writing, I can throw it all in this website. My starter pack is listening to music, mood and type. Dear future love, I just wanna tell you that I will bother you a lot, madly in love with you, being whiny, being childish, being dumb, being weird, being hungry all the time and this is because I'm really comfortable with you or being with you. You should prepare yourself too because I'm not that easy. Hope to meet you soon. Take care. Blessings!
Love,
Your future love
xoxo.
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