Almost~

I still remember about this incident. It was few years ago, before I entered to University. I met a guy through online. At first, I'm so excited knowing that I finally have someone to chat with because during that time me and my ex were broke up. So, basically the online guy was some kind of temporary excitement. Sounds cruel right? but I'm just trying to be honest. We started pretty well. He added me on Facebook. He send me a private message. He said " Hi there, I think I know you because we  went to the same elementary school but I was your super senior." I replied to him and said " Hi too. oh, really? I didn't remember you at all." This is because I'm just an ordinary student who tried to survive in school. It was Chinese school. I had to learn everything in Chinese language except for Bahasa Melayu & English subjects. It was hard and I had few horrible memories there and one of them I was beaten by my homeroom teacher. She uses a cane and hit on my palm for 21 times. I just couldn't remember the essay. She asked us to memorize it during morning class and the afternoon we had tuition class with the same teacher. I just can't memorize it well. It was all the Chinese character. Gosh. That kind of punishment makes me a better person ( I can memorize more lyric after that. HAHA. it has nothing to do with Chinese character) Sadly, that fierce homeroom teacher passed away couple years ago. She just too old. I bet it's time for her. Okay, back on track. that online guy being friendly to me. Suddenly, we've became so much closer than ever. There's an app that named Wechat. He's asking for my ID and added me there. Surprisingly, nearly every day we've been chat. Yes, we had good morning, good night and 3 am talk. We're being lovey-dovey. We've been go out for 3 times. He told me everything that cross on his mind. No secrets between us. The chemistry was there. The spark started to have a lot of smoke. Even if he's busy during the day, he still managed to call or send a chat. He used his office phone to call me and tell that he missed me. Everything was fine until he told me that he had a crush on other girl. After that, he rarely send a chat and ignoring me. Turned out to be he already confess his love towards that girl. How shocking that was for me. The girl was giving him hard time because that girl just broke up with her bf. I forgot to mention that the online guy also having the same situation like the girl. Basically, the 3 of us were in the same situation. I know it's sucks but we were not officially dating but he broke my heart. I'm falling into pieces. We stop sending chats when we were having quite a fight. He even went to my house just because he wanted to apologize. He used to tell me that he can't forget me. Till now, whenever he bumped into my mother somewhere he definitely will ask about me. He did love me but he loves her more. That was the only almost I ever had. I hate being the almost girl. What's the point then? he wasted my time. I even made a dessert for him and he did love it. Well, I refused to start any relationship now because I'm only end up being the almost girl again. No date, no pain. That's all.