Friday, October 18, 2013
The boy who named F*****~
He was my crush since i was 11 years old and until now i still having a crush on him. For me, he was my dream and perfect guy. I like all about him and he was the apple of my eye. His family already known me for a long time because we went to the same church. I did like all of his family member especially his sister. I still wondering why he was too precious to me. Seems like he was my destiny. No matter how much i did loved someone on my past, he will still be in my haert. I did try to let go of him but he kept appeared my dream. He was studying at Kota Kinabalu and each time if he was planning for going back to Sandakan he will appear in my dream. Seem like he was told me that he was going back to Sandakan. To be Continued
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
...." i don't realise that i also can be strong enough without you..."
Well.. it's been a month now and i'm still trying so hard to forget about him. Thank God for His love and grace that fullfil my empty heart and soul. I just don't want to talk much now. I'm speechless. Sorry...
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Hello August :)
Time goes swiftly on it's way. All i can do is facing all the problems without postpone it and i wish i could stop or control it. Honestly, i still a brokenhearted girl but i guess i was too tough and trying so hard to forget him even though i know it's impossible. Ain't no person would love me as much as he do but he's love starting to decrease day by day. He started to look outside of me not the inside of me. I mean my physical. I know it's not easy for him having a plus size girlfriend and it ain't easy for me too because i'm bigger than my boyfriend. People always make fun of us whenever we were going for a walk. I was hurting a lot. It hurts like hell. His friend always teasing me by saying that i am fat and not suitable for their friend. After 4 years, i decided to leave him and he did accept it at the first place. Recently, he did asked me if i wanna be his girlfriend once more but all i can do was trying to ignore and our conversation ended with fight. I really more prefer that we were fought by ending our conversation because i quite worried that i will be back again with him. Being his girlfriend is the best feeling ever. I love him so much than he know. Loving a person doesn't mean that we are going to own them but loving a person is about how your appreciate them, remember them, love who the way they are, take care of them even though there's a distance that might limited your actions. I, seriously said that forgetting you was the hardest thing i could have done. Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to apart and nobody's tell it would be this hard.
Thursday, July 18, 2013
So...
This is my wishlist for my future boyfriend :
1. Accept me who i am
2. Love me dearly (most important)
3. He must be a christian
4. Look alike Bruno Mars (I know it's impossible)
5. Like my family and respect them.
6. Wear perfume.
7. Love english language.
8. Can play at least one music instrument (guitar would be my first choice)
9. Must older than me. ( 20 years old - 22 years old )
10. Never plays DOTA ( for sure )
11. Not smoking and drink alcohol.
12. Must taller than me because i love tall guy.
13. Must be dusun okey!
14. Text me every morning and say good night to me every night.
15. Call me first!
16. Don't ever control my life! ( I swear i will curse you! Haha)
This is my ridiculous wishlist and it's all bullshit.
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