It's not easy to be me

It's about 3 weeks and a half I've been living in this new place that called Kuala Lumpur. During that time I was struggle so many things such as muscle pain, sick, hard to remember the notes that has been given to me and so on. This only happens during this 3 weeks and half. I'm sure that during my 3 years and half here,there will be so much struggle and obstacles that I will be facing. Thinking of that, sometimes I'm quite afraid. When it comes to lean on God and trust HIM, there are seems no worry at all. Even though I'm sick or else, there will be something or someone will come and take care or things that can help me to face it. So far, my university life wasn't that bad. Living in this hostel was my first time. I mean before this I never experience living in a hostel because the school that I went was so close to my home sweet home. Speaking of home, I really miss it so much. Not only the home but its content too. I mean my family. hehe. The person I missed the most is my mother. Mommy, I really miss you. Since I was her little girl, I was the closest person to my mother. I always accompany her to go anywhere such as going to church, shopping and more. When it comes to plan something for our family, me and my mother always had a same opinion. Sometimes I think that I'm so desperately finding a "boyfriend" in this university. I hate it because I will always meet a wrong person rather than the right person. But girl, life isn't about love. The reason I came here was I want to study and graduate. Like my geography teacher said: kejar cita-cita dahulu dan cinta akan muncul dengan sendiri. I always keep this quotes in my mind. Also, when you stop finding and it will come by it's own. This is only an alternative and I still believe that God's plan simply the best among the best.